Ahhh.....My Life

Ever feel like it's vacation time? I'm ready for a 72 hours in a padded room, wearing a white jacket hugging myself, medicated induced sleep vacation. After all of the events that have happened in about the past 7 months, I'm worn out. But no time for that I must continue on.

I am happy to report that I am getting involved with church, well actually two churches. I have went from bar hopping to church hopping. Totally getting in on God's good side, I am so making it into heaven LOL! But I am very happy to report that Saturday, July 10, 2010 I will not be able to hang on on Twitter or Facebook all morning, nope. I will be at an organization called Shoes for Orphan Souls. I will be busy boxing up shoes to be shipped to orphans all around the world.

I am very happy that I am stepping outside of my box and becoming involved. After I first had Bella I sorta became lost in her a little. I had a grasp on myself because I worked so I had adult interaction, which was nice. After I quit my job last year my life has become completely consumed with Bella, toddlers, friends, and boyfriend. I have been going to church for quite awhile now and since I've really started leading a Christian life God has taken the vast majority of my friends and my boyfriend. I have one friend left, I feel like I am becoming less of McKenzie and more of just Bella's mom. So I have decided that I am going to recapture myself and become involved in the world around me, and here is the best part....YOU ARE ALL COMING WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!! BAWHAHAHAHAHAHA Sorry, had too LOL!

I hope you enjoy hearing about my adventures of becoming a person again and I know I said it last time but it won't be so long before you hear from me again.

KISSES
Kenzi

Clarification

On yesterday's post regarding the analogy of mine and Derek's relationship to that of Bella and Jacob's relationship post Renesmee, Derek so kindly pointed out that people would assume he has or will "imprint" on my Bella. This is not the case. Think of the friendship that Jacob and Bella have sans Renesmee. Thanks again D-ROCK!

GRRR...I have never wanted to hurt my kid...until today.

So I have a loft bed, for those who don't know a loft bed is the top bunk of a bunk bed with nothing underneath. So for naptime, Bella is laying up there. Instead of going to sleep like she should she decides to rip the shelf that I have up there off of the wall. I have never been so mad at her! Finally after a spanking and some crying she has decided to go to sleep...on the sofa.

OK, OK I know I've been horrible

I know, I have been naughty, just send me to time out and I am sorry for not blogging for about 4 months. But I am back, promise! A lot has happened over the past 4 months. I lost the really wonderful guy that I was planning on marrying, turns out he was a complete scum bag that was already married. I lost one best friend, reconnected with another after 6 years! I LOVE YOU D! Joined eHarmony, I'll post updates on that. Mastered making garlic mashed potatoes, you're welcome D. Been molding the next generation and I have gotten back into church. Rededicated my life to the Lord and I'm really trying (struggling) to be a positive person.
I had a revelation the night while I was sitting in church. I am a horrible, cynical, bitter person and I need to let go. So I am letting go, I already feel better. God is great!
About 6 years ago I lost my best friend, D, because he started dating a chick who didn't grasp the concept that he and I are strictly friends. D and I meant when we were in the 6th grade at a dance. We became fast friends and over the course of about a year we were best friends. D then moved away our freshman year but our friendship continued the same. Then our senior year decided to listen to his little head and start dating this hot chick who was and still is CRAZY!!! We stopped talking and about a year ago we sorta got back in touch on Facebook. This February the crazy hot chick decided to sleep with another guy while she and D were still in a committed relationship, needless to say D was hurt and confused, to be honest he was an absolute wreck. He called me up and I invited to come stay with me which he did. D and I are back into our old habits. It's weird, you know how they say twins can feel each other? I feel D, I love him. He and I will always be best friends. For my Twilight readers our bond is like that of Bella and Jacob's after Renesmee is born. I love my bestie!

I am sitting here peacefully on the sofa writing this blog while hell breaks loose all around me. Today I have three 2 year olds who I think are having a contest to see which they can make happen first, destroy my house or destroy my sanity.

It's a close race.

I should be working on homework right now but Thomas the Train is so loud I can barely hear myself think. And it has to be loud to drown out their screams and shrieks. I have been sitting here trying to plan a menu for the little mental terrorists for today and tomorrow, and the only thing I can think of is chicken nuggets and tater tots.

I am very surprised that my Christmas tree has survived this far. Most other things in here have not. I'm looking so forward to cleaning up this mess, that should be great fun. I have realized that my child is either extremely advanced for her age or these other kids are extremely dumb!

Oh well, Dylan is trying to push Cambria in the stove, I should go stop that.......

The Princess and the Frog

Well today I had a moment of insanity and took two 2 year old girls to see Disney's The Princess and the Frog movie. (The movie theater experience was a first for both children.) First off, the girls did a great, and they enjoyed the movie. I did have enough sense to go to the first showing and since there were only a few people were there we were able to get good seats by the door (for a quick escape) and they had room to dance to the music.

I was actually impressed with the movie, it had a great story line and I think Disney did a really good job with making it toddler/preschooler appropriate, more so then when I was a kid. I know there has been a lot of talk over the movie considering this is the first African American Princess for Disney. I highly recommend this movie and I will be purchasing it when it comes out on DVD since Bella is already driving me crazy about it.

I've been a bad blogger.....

I have been, I know this, but that damn Twilight saga was too intriguing to put down. So I didn't, and now I'm somewhat sad because it's over. I swore to myself that I would not become wrapped up in the whole Twilight thing, but I am, and it's soo sad!

I did take a Twilight break to go help Bobbi put the finishing touches on her new crib, (yes I did just "say" crib...trying out the gangsta Kenzi...whadaya think??? Ya, I'm not feelin' it either.) And we had a lot of fun going through her stuff, it definitely worked to my advantage since I left her house with a huge trash sack full of clothes. Ahh, narrowly escaped shopping for myself yet again. Somewhere between pregnancy and the terrible two's I have lost all desire to buy clothes for myself. I feel as if I'm caught between a teenager and an adult style wise. I'm not ready to trade in low rise jeans for mom jeans, but the low rise are so uncomfortable anymore. And then I have the problem of being the assless wonder. It's hard to find ANY jeans that make my butt look good! Oh well, I'm a stay at home mom who needs real pants?? I can get away with wearing nothing but pajamas right?!?!

Another reason I haven't been blogging is because I've been somewhat in a rut. To be completely honest I have not wanted to do anything for about a month now. My house keeping is suffering, Bella is driving me crazy, and I have no desire to do anything. But I am happy to report I am pulling myself up by the boot straps (Ugg boot straps, found some at Marshall's for $30!!) I have identified my problem and I am now working on rectifying my laziness.

Bobbi has also turned me on to babywearing my toddler, and I regret not investing more time into finding slings when Bella was an infant. But she likes it now and so do it. Next time around I know better. Speaking of children, I am honestly curious why so many mothers have adversions to spanking? When spanking is done properly it's a useful tool, and there IS a difference between spanking and beating a child. I think if more people spanked their kids we would not have as many problems with society. People do not teach their children to behave and respect authority and that in turn produces adults who don't behave and respect authority. So parents, spank your kids!