My Religion

As most of the people close to me know, I am becoming quite involved in church. I love it, I would go everyday if I could. Bella goes to nursery and she loves it there. She is always asking to go to church and she gets really excited when she "finds" the church. The other day as we were leaving she informed me that she, "...loves Jesus very very much." When those words came out of her precious mouth it made my heart jump. I want her to feel that fire, I want her to be raised in that environment.

I am trying really hard to be a good faithful Christian. I know I slip, and fall and I know that I won't be perfect, and I'm okay with that. Yesterday I listened to an awesome service. The pastor did an amazing job on really explaining some basics. He said that people who were really Christians had a grateful heart and wanted to do good works to glorify God, not to boast about their good works. He also said one great statement, that perfect church people won't help people who need help, but grateful people will. He then gave an example of a meth addict or alcoholic. Those of you close to me, know who my alcoholic is. And I was faced with a tough situation regarding him about a week ago. I knew the situation was a sign from God, a test, a lesson, but I didn't understand it. I prayed for God to give me a plain as day answer, and God does answer prayers. He gave me an answer yesterday.

So yesterday after leaving church I called my alcoholic and his situation has changed, he is in the position to go back to his old self. And I'm faced with a dilemma, do I do the works of a good church person or do I run away? To all of my Christian readers, keep me in your prayers, I need it.

Our Children

Just before I decided to write this post I received an e-mail from babycenter.com titled "Is your child gifted?" Now I did sign up for babycenter.com and a few other sites when I found out that I was pregnant to learn as much information as possible about babies, and trust me I'm not knocking these sites. I have found a lot of good information on them.

However, I am knocking us as a society of parents. Do we really need someone else to tell us if our children are gifted? What happened to our kids just being special the way they are? Do I think Bella is gifted? Absolutely, I bet you feel the same about your kids. Am I going to be crushed when Bella starts school if she ends up being "average"? Nope, because I biased. Babycenter.com knows my kid is 2 years old, an "Is your child gifted?" e-mail really doesn't benefit me in any way.

So I propose that all of us parents stop treating our children like they COULD be gifted and act like they ARE gifted and I bet we might end up with more ACTUAL gifted children, just a thought.

KISSES
Kenzi

Ahhh.....My Life

Ever feel like it's vacation time? I'm ready for a 72 hours in a padded room, wearing a white jacket hugging myself, medicated induced sleep vacation. After all of the events that have happened in about the past 7 months, I'm worn out. But no time for that I must continue on.

I am happy to report that I am getting involved with church, well actually two churches. I have went from bar hopping to church hopping. Totally getting in on God's good side, I am so making it into heaven LOL! But I am very happy to report that Saturday, July 10, 2010 I will not be able to hang on on Twitter or Facebook all morning, nope. I will be at an organization called Shoes for Orphan Souls. I will be busy boxing up shoes to be shipped to orphans all around the world.

I am very happy that I am stepping outside of my box and becoming involved. After I first had Bella I sorta became lost in her a little. I had a grasp on myself because I worked so I had adult interaction, which was nice. After I quit my job last year my life has become completely consumed with Bella, toddlers, friends, and boyfriend. I have been going to church for quite awhile now and since I've really started leading a Christian life God has taken the vast majority of my friends and my boyfriend. I have one friend left, I feel like I am becoming less of McKenzie and more of just Bella's mom. So I have decided that I am going to recapture myself and become involved in the world around me, and here is the best part....YOU ARE ALL COMING WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!! BAWHAHAHAHAHAHA Sorry, had too LOL!

I hope you enjoy hearing about my adventures of becoming a person again and I know I said it last time but it won't be so long before you hear from me again.

KISSES
Kenzi

Clarification

On yesterday's post regarding the analogy of mine and Derek's relationship to that of Bella and Jacob's relationship post Renesmee, Derek so kindly pointed out that people would assume he has or will "imprint" on my Bella. This is not the case. Think of the friendship that Jacob and Bella have sans Renesmee. Thanks again D-ROCK!

GRRR...I have never wanted to hurt my kid...until today.

So I have a loft bed, for those who don't know a loft bed is the top bunk of a bunk bed with nothing underneath. So for naptime, Bella is laying up there. Instead of going to sleep like she should she decides to rip the shelf that I have up there off of the wall. I have never been so mad at her! Finally after a spanking and some crying she has decided to go to sleep...on the sofa.

OK, OK I know I've been horrible

I know, I have been naughty, just send me to time out and I am sorry for not blogging for about 4 months. But I am back, promise! A lot has happened over the past 4 months. I lost the really wonderful guy that I was planning on marrying, turns out he was a complete scum bag that was already married. I lost one best friend, reconnected with another after 6 years! I LOVE YOU D! Joined eHarmony, I'll post updates on that. Mastered making garlic mashed potatoes, you're welcome D. Been molding the next generation and I have gotten back into church. Rededicated my life to the Lord and I'm really trying (struggling) to be a positive person.
I had a revelation the night while I was sitting in church. I am a horrible, cynical, bitter person and I need to let go. So I am letting go, I already feel better. God is great!
About 6 years ago I lost my best friend, D, because he started dating a chick who didn't grasp the concept that he and I are strictly friends. D and I meant when we were in the 6th grade at a dance. We became fast friends and over the course of about a year we were best friends. D then moved away our freshman year but our friendship continued the same. Then our senior year decided to listen to his little head and start dating this hot chick who was and still is CRAZY!!! We stopped talking and about a year ago we sorta got back in touch on Facebook. This February the crazy hot chick decided to sleep with another guy while she and D were still in a committed relationship, needless to say D was hurt and confused, to be honest he was an absolute wreck. He called me up and I invited to come stay with me which he did. D and I are back into our old habits. It's weird, you know how they say twins can feel each other? I feel D, I love him. He and I will always be best friends. For my Twilight readers our bond is like that of Bella and Jacob's after Renesmee is born. I love my bestie!